-Betzy Hughes-
Love is pain and his cuts like a knife
Carving deep into the heart of me
shattering my soul
You said u love me,
but was it only because I said it so many times to you
And you felt it better to keep me by telling me what you thought I should hear
How dare you! Countless nites I cried
Tears stain my dress with shards of glass scratching down a face that will never heal
It wasn't always like this...
I remember when I would dream of the nites I wished to hold you
To sell out the world for just 1 kiss of your lips...I long for you
I ached every time I thought of you and was denied hearing your voice
Instead...the sound dulls me like ice, sharp with precision
Your voice mail greets me lovingly,
"The customer you are trying to reach is unavailable. Mssg G46"
Ain't this some shit!?
After 2wks, 4 days, an email, call and a text later,
you send me a smile with a, "Hey, how are you?
Like nothing ever happened and your voice makes it all ok
Like, because you took some time from your busy schedule to notice I'm alive,
I should reward you with praise and love and kisses and hugs
But you, you bastard! You hurt me.
And even now, I love you.
I must be stupid, stupid for hope and love and dreams of us,
for silly love and inspired fantasy and fucking twisted reality, but know this...
I thank you...for the 40lbs I consumed worried about you will shed on Trevor's Yacht in Spain
-1LOVE-
Dear Lord
I hope this does not fall on deaf ears
I pray to thee cause she...well, she...will not listen
"I'm sorry"
for all the headache and pain caused by me
These words may be
a lil too late
I may be, a sandwich short of a pic-nic basket then,
feel free to embalm me and
fit me nice and tidy in a basket because my soul...is dead
It's a bit funny how,
how I can find the words now to say,
what I should have said,
when we were still together
"Actions speak louder than words!"
Well if that's true,
then Janei has heard me say everything except, "I love you"
The cold, lonely nites I left her alone
The long days I let go by, no word from me at all...
not even a phone call
I know you don't miss your water 'til your well runs dry, but I,
I realize, my well was filled with the tears I made her cry
My body continues to ache for your touch
Yes, the touch I used to ignore and pull away from
The same, gentle touch, that used to send me on a roller coaster ride;
Pass Mars, around Venus, thru the Milky Way and straight to Heaven's door
I couldn't wait to come back...and do it all over again
I dream of your loving kisses and passionate embraces,
and in those few seconds (which felt like an eternity) everything...was alright
If only you were here, to lie beside me
All up under me...just because
you want to be near me
I would,
cease the moment and
shelter you with my loving arms
and when
our heartbeat is finally in sync,
we would,
peacefully,
gently,
fall...
alseep
1 mind, body and soul; We were a perfect fit
But I fucked that up with my alpha male bullshit
I can still hear your voice
It's on an infinite loop, constantly ringing in my ears...
such a beautiful, comforting melody
Oohhh, what I wouldn't give for you to speak to me again
And if the devil appeared, "Sign the dotted line. Make it like the first time!"
I would...without hesitation
If that, would bring you back
I miss, "Good morning, baby."
And, "How was your day?"
Or, "Dinner is ready. Where have you been?"
Even, "Tell me what you're thinkin'"
Back then, it felt like naggin'
I wish you would tell just how much you care again
But I,
put my foot down 1 too many times, and I
pounded my chest 'til I could not breathe, and I
BEAT YOU!
right,
out of,
my...
life
(C) 2011
"Scratching Scars"
by Mz. Betzy Huges and 1LOVE
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